Bii

i know you will leave me one day. and the day has come. i treasure our relationship because im afraid that you will not beside me. i treasure every single moment we spent. but in the end i failed to maintain our relationship. u choose to leave me alone. the reality hits me. what could i do?why dont you treasure me, even u know that im sincere? my heart is only for you.

I have Tried

It had been 8 months. Do you really care about me? I need constant love and care. Is it so hard to give me some flowers? How i wish i could be the one you thought of when you wake up in the morning.

Surreal

25th Jan 2009- It was a wonderful day that was full of surprises. I was supposed to take a flight home via jetstar in the evening and unexpectedly my msn window popped out and it was him. A guy that i fell in love 3 years ago in Sydney and we ended our relationship 2 years ago. I have not seen him in msn since then because i believed that he had blocked me. I was really excited to chat with him again...and the first question he asked me was do i have a boyfriend. He left his phone number to me before i left to the airport.

26th Jan 2009- He sms-ed me in the evening. I didnt expect that he will contact me and of coz i was nervous and kind of excited. After pretending to ask each other some silly questions he finally drove to my house. before reaching to my house he called me and i picked up with my heart pounded fast. "hey where is ur usj4?" i will forever remember this moment. his voice that i have not heard for 2 years. do you know how much i miss you? i wanna tell him but i know i cant tell him this... i love u i love u i love u dear where have u been in these 2 yearS???

When i jumped into his car, yes, is that scent. regretfully i didnt pay much attention on him in the past and now only i found out that he is using hugo boss. hugo boss? i didnt know about branded stuffs back then so he must be thinking that im such an idiot no wonder he doesnt like me. we are from different family background and he is well exposed to many many things which i cant even cope into them.

We went for starbucks. I had my usual green tea frapuccino and he had java chip. after that he brought me for drive-by, showing me houses he loves in bangsar. It was first time for me. he is so matured yet cute now. i like that in him. do i deserve him?

He asked me what i want coz he felt guity of using me and left me alone back then...... didnt he forget everything? i am just nothing to him...i worth not a single cent. he hugged me when i start sobbing. i love his hug, holding hands with him, his kisses.... dear, im really sad to lost you, i have been missing you for these years, i miss your accompaniment, i know i cant be your gf, i dont deserve your love and care, i cant forget you ....how i am gonna live without you?

Cars And Certificates

Just went to Expo for automobiles exhibition. The place is crowded but very dissappointing because the nicest car i could find was MAZda RX8 only man :(

Sadly i board a train home straight. ok enough of sad stuffs i have something else to say.



After years of torturing myself in university, this is what i eventually got in return. This is my dad's greatest ever investement which generates negative return. Dad is a risk adverse investor but he had thrown out over a hundred thousands for me simply because he just loves me unconditionally.

For cost saving purpose, i did a twinning program with Taylor's College and went to Sydney to get my final year completed. As soon as i completed by under-grad, i felt like, yes i felt like taking masters to apply for a permanet residency in Australia thus i asked for dad's permission. Both two semesters in under-grad costed like AUD 18,000 and another two semesters for AUD 20,000.

Education is extremely commercialised worldwide, except some countries still provide free education to foreigners like France or Germany if i am not mistaken. If time could reverse, i might choose a cheapskate university to study instead. Anyway if i try to think optimistically, i am very grateful that i have a chance to live in Sydney for a freaking 2 years to gain some life experiences, going through a very poor life-style stocking instant noodles that i never feel that delicious before. I learned how to cook simple dishes such as soup noodles, porridge to fill my tummy. I learned to only spend $5 per week on fruits, veges, meat and groceries. I learned how to steal breads from my workplace and stored them in my fridge for breakfast. I am so stingy afterall.

Ribs Dining with Bonnie

During my stay in Sydney, I always have the urge to get rid of the place as soon as possible because my rental is killing me, and so do the expenses incurred there. Six months later, unbelievebly i started to miss Sydney, especially my best coursemates who were always standing by my side and gave me encouragement and sharing thoughts of the hardship in a student's life. Most of them are being into the workforce before continuing their studies over here. Thus they do not hestitate to give me the best opinion in a mature manner. Bonnie is one of my best friend in Sydney. She is originally from Hong Kong and now a citizen in australia. We were from the same class in corporate finance. I still remember vividly how badly our presentation was then because the lecturer shouted at us "time is up" wth. Before I left, she had a few night outs with me after her work. Just one day before I left, we went to Darling Harbour for Pork Ribs, and also shopping around the city.



My stocking and my denim shoes which were all disposed before i flew back.




This is bonnie and me in Darling Harbour. Nice water view and surrounded by fine dinings places.Sadly, I have never been most of the restaurants before there. "Pancake on the Rocks" has opened a new outlet in Darling Harbour. this is my favourite restaurant of various yummy pancakes and crepes and also the ribs. The grilled pork ribs are served with potatoes wedges and sour salad. I tried the beef ribs before there too andit was awesome. The pork ribs was expectedly not bad afterall.







I know i look like a ghost here because i have not enough sleep and i never put on any make-up due to enthusiasm. haha






I would definitely visit sydney again to attend Bonnie's wedding. hehe

I am here

Finally, i decided to re-visit my blog again after months. Time flies and now i am working full-time in Singapore. My blog brought me back to year 2006 and i realised that kind of unique feeling when i look back to my past. Too much memories, sweet but sad at the same time, all pilling up again in my mind. I found something that i totally forgotten from my blog, which i dont wish to recall anymore. Blogspot is lagging most of the time, not to mention of posting pictures again. I have no mood to take pictures anymore. I dont have sufficient time after work to think about what to blog and slowly uploading pics. sigh. From Malaysia--Australia---Singapore, where will be my next stop? What do i need to pursue next? Priority, what a big word.

Stupid Interview

One month ago, i was notified by Singapore KPMG to attend an interview in Sydney because they are coming here to conduct the interview. I had been preparing since early in the morning to get my hair tied up, make-up and reading the stupid website

but i think....i failed coz he only interviewed me for 10 mins wth wth wth and asked me to go home :(

damn

My Real Final Exam

I would be an official post-graduate soon, after my final paper dated 24th nov 2007. Yeah !!!! the moment i had been awaiting for ages and ages would be arriving soon...haha i know i will definitely pass this stupid exam and there would be no more exams in my life (i hope so). There have been three months living without an internet connection at home, to the extend that i even forgot about my blog. Two days later would be having my Managerial Accounting paper. But guess what students usually love to do while studying for exam is procastinating through out the whole day. okok i duwan a high distinction or Distinction i just wanna get a credit that's all. Hey summer is coming soon !! I really want to have a summer dress like this. i think is gorgeous in multiple colours cotton material yet versatile to suit different occasions. My long-awaited Singapore trip is 17 days more to go !!! Looking forward to travel by Sing Air for the 1st time.

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My Graduation 2007

Im graduated !!!!

My first graduation ceremony was held at 14th May 2007, The Great Hall, UTS 2.30pm.

I had rushed there from Chastwood at 2.00pm to collect my gown. The gowning staffs are very efficient and friendly enough to help me to fit in the gown.

Thanks everyone for coming :) especially to may vinn and eugene. They are my temporary "parents" because my parents were absent for the ceremony. Forunately i still be able to receive two bouquets from May Vinn and my boss.

Taken this pic with David, which his ceremony was held earlier than mine.

And some random pictures taken by eugene. Thank you very much for your patience and your precious time for entertaning me. I know you are a bit up set but I really need the pictures ahahah.

Outside Tower Building

With Mei Yen, my post-grad classmate.

Lovely May Vinn was the one who came the earliest to support me :( love ya

Chess in my uni

Juliet the princess

That was a Sydney Bus behind me

Jenny came too !!!

Boss's dedication, finally


May vinn's tulips

We were prompted to return the gown by 4pm but i still wanna take pics until 4.30 pm

Somewhere at the open area on level 5

With a guy from China. He is so lucky to have heaps of relatives flew over to attend the ceremony.

This is the $5 chicken thingy as the celebration of the night.

I will be having another graduation by next year May. Probably will be wearing the same heavy and warm gown again.

Reflection in New Year 2007, Sydney

:: This was the first time and the only time that i had actually went for a new year countdown. The fireworks at the Sydney Harbour Bridge is the best on earth so definitely i wont miss it !

I headed to Fenny's apartment around 8.30 pm. We heard that many people being in circular quay early in the evening just to get themselves an ideal spot. We are probably too late to go for that. Sing Ling and her boyfriend came to pick us up to Darling Harbour for the earlier 9pm fireworks show. The fireworks was good indeed and the whole place was extremely crowded to move yourself.

After that we followed the slow moving crowd to walk to the circular quay but to my surprise was there were so many people stucking on the stairs of the bridge and we could hardly breath. We hold hands tightly as noticing it might me inevitable to lost ourselves. The journey through walking up the stairs was an unforgetably awful experience because we felt that we were like Vietmanese refugee running away to somewhere.

We walked through the George street and take pictures without noticing the entrance to opera house was closed because there were too many people :(

anxiously, we ran towards the harbour bridge via the rocks. The place was very crowded too but luckily we managed to get in. The crowd was not as agressive as Malaysian, anyway they still pushing each other and i can tell you i nearly got suffocated to death. The air circulation was very poor.

We took the pics during the fireworks. It lasted only for 15mins but it was marvellous. Couples kissing and hugging each other, in the romantic atmosphere. suddenly i got kissed too :) by Sing Lin.

me, fenny and sing lin when waiting for the fireworks at 11pm

Pretty women, walking down the street, pretty women...........

The xmas tree is the best ever and it hasnt been taken away yet.

Opera house's fireworks.

After the fireworks ended, we took a long time to move to the street. and took pictures again

Happy New Year 2007 !!!!!

Sing Lin's bf took us to Maisy's Cafe at Neutral Bay for supper. The cafe is opened 24/7 and i believed it is hardly to find a cafe that opened late in sydney. There are only a few stuffs in the menu but i reckon they are really worth to try. I had a piece of new york cheesecake which was the best cheesecake ever sent me to heaven. Oh im drowning.........

Procrastination

It is 12.11 am i am blogging out here. I am such a procrastinator. Supposed to be studying for my Corporate Finance mid term which is weighted 35% overall, I am inevitably involved in many procrastination activities. I dont know how to calculate value on real options which i supposed to know, i dont understand how to calculate tracking portfolio and covariance stuffs, but having a wifi here is indeed a good procrastination tool though. Today is a depress session for me. I have panda eyes, i cant even sleep more than 7 hours which i previously addicted to a 10 hr sleep. My so called stupid landlady is gonna increase my rent, which sucks all of my salary. It is almost inevitable since nowadays rental is shooting high up. Fuck her. damn .... i wanna move house as soon as i finished exam. save me !

Anna Beach

:: You know what? This is the Biggest beach I ever seen in Australia. Anna's Beach is fantastically fabulous. Located in the countryside of Sydney, it is totally seperated from the busy city. The beachline is endless as what I barely seen, soft silky white sand without any single stain, there are tones of sand form sand mountains ideal for sand boarding and the beach is super duper big as a mini desert. Crystal clear water with icy temperature, everything is just so pure.










Greenly small plants growing along the coast, being mistaken as the oasis.

Yellow little flowers bloomed.

I just wanna get closer to the nature, by soaking my foot into the icy water.

The beach is mine, it belongs to me !!!



This picture is awesomely shoot by me. I love this picture as the combination of beauty and so the beauty of the nature.





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Our legs under the clear water.







Too excited to discover a mini pyramid on the desert !!!

Oh my camels!!! I saw camels !!!

Going home. Bye bye my darling !!!









Mussels are precious in Australia. The regulation strictly protect the wildlife. Whoever took the mussel homoe would be fined $5000. Anyway, the mussels are poisonous to be consumed.



Observe how he dug the mussels out of the sand. Professional huh?


















A little mussels video for you !