The Art of Pretending

:: Sometimes I doubt who I really am?

Familiar. He looks extremely familiar to me. Of course I know is him. My mind turned blank immediately in a second. Surprised, shocked, puzzled. My body was obviously out of coordination. My reaction significantly slowed down and I didnt know how to react or should I react. I never ever dream of I'll bumped into him at that place at the time. Unbelievable. Dumb enough, I just smiled at him dumbly, a very fake dumb smile. To my surprised, he did not recognise me at all even though we were approaching each other, he looked so cute innocent and then just walked away and disappeared in my view in a minute, with two of his female colleagues.

I should have shouted at him. Sigh. I didnt. Why? I dunno. It happened too fast as the speed of the appearance of the shooting star.

There were some days that were really bored. While I was wandering around Myers and Centre Point in a lazy evening, I felt a sense of loneliness even though xmas is around the corner. The place was so crowded because everyone was rushing to do their last minute Xmas shopping, except me. A huge variety of xmas gifts are available for sale such as perfume gift pack, lingeries gift pack, cosmetics, bathroom products are packed nicely in a little box and wrapped neatly with gorgeous shinny wrappers, completed with a cute ribbon on it. That was really cruel. Window shop is the cruelest thing to do. Everything is just extremely expensive.

Something had caught my eyes. I fancy that gorgeous party dress, pink in colour, with white lace embroidery on the edge of the skirt, loli style- corset top with lacy ribbons, OMG the price is $199 !!! Ok, I told myself, quick, get away from this place, go study or just crawl home. YOu have no more money !

I gave a call to him once i reached home. Indeed he said he never see me, at all. Perhaps he lost concentration as he confessed. Prolly he was surrounded by two females on each side and it is understandable that he wont notice me when he stucked in the middle of the two ladies. Confused. I remembered he gave me a glance, a single glance, why ? I doubt if I looked so ugly without make up? I doubt how come I look so different in my ugly specs, or perhaps in the pink heels boots, the 3/4 lenght pink pants,the half see-through MNG green long sleeve top .....

In fact, some of my friends couldnt recognise me when I tie up my hair. They said I was totally like 2 different person.......

So, should i take of my mask ?

Merry Christmas 2006

:: Christmas is around the corner. No turkey, no Christmas cookies and no brownies for me this year. I miss my luxury Christmas buffets in Shangrila KL.

Christmas will be here without knowing it, and would be ended in the same manner. Christmas carols used to be compatible with me however as time goes by they became kinda sort of repetitive, dull, annoying me badly because it ruins out of my nerves and no longer compatible anymore. As what I finally produced from my professional Chirstmas Decoration Inspection in Sydney, Queen Victoria Building made my day and won my heart.

QVB is an old artistic ancient building ages ago and is now a high class shopping centre with a grand Christmas deco.

The stylish and royalish deco is a counterpart to symbolise the status of QVB itself. Upon seeing this majestic sight, I felt the timeline has drifted back to 100 years ago, while I am the queen of the building :) The golden theme is really royalish, ideally a best compliment with the original ancient-style interior.

Seriously, I feel like I am damn rich when I walked around QVB. Everything is just so luxury that I would ever dream for. Certainly I wish I could dressed up in full Christmas costume, like a Santarina giving away xmas gifts.

Anyway, I was still wearing something related to the Santa's colour. Dressed up in my favourite colour REd and White, instead of REd and Green. I am not ready to match with the Christmas tree yet :P.

My only hundred and one white Esprit top, and my brand new goli style pink shoes brought from KL finally has a chance toshow-off themselves.

Grand piano. This is not really grand because it is the smallest one i ever seen.

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I like to take picture with the grand piano. Now,tell me that I look rich, at least for once in a life time.

Super tall Christmas Tree behind me.

stars surrounding me on the bottom part of the huge xmas tree.

I really love this

Merry Xmas and a Happy New Year !

Returning to KL

:: I really need someone to accompany me to the airport. Accompany me so that I would feel being accompanied, or help me to carry my lap top, cuddle me and kiss me goodbye, whatever. During the two hours phone conversation, mentioned something intensively touched my heart. What if I never ever return to Sydney again? Would I get a bf in KL instantly in one month time? Silly. You silly head.

Lying on the bed continously curling my hair around my finger for a very long time, I finally got my real answer. No more hedging, no more excuses, no more half-true answers or not-true-at-all answers. This is what I should say without sounding vague, or following up with a dumb ‘i dont know’, or sounding brutally ruthless. ruthlessly brutal. unkind. uncertain.

Unfortunately this place does not belonged to me. No matter how luxury , how prosperous, how gorgeous, how classy , how elaborate, it is still not my place.

Like moving to Sydney, I dont know what was going on before. Other people might have stronger connection than me. There are other people fingerprints on the wall, the bed has the smell of sex. And I dunno why the swimming pools have the stains of blood.

I am just a coconut's country type of village girl. Wearing a pink hibiscus in my hair. Hopping around chasing the pussy cats that are making love on the street. Born in a little tropical island that is rich with coconuts' smell, famous with its black paper and curry spices, multiculture and multilingualistic.

A simple reason would turn the whole thing round. There is a unique reason keeping me to stay in Sydney. Not luxuries. I hope I had made the accurate judgement based on my intensity. Is it ridiculous to rely soley on intensity? Well we will never know what will happen tomorrow.

My MAS flight already confirmed at 2nd of January, 10.50pm, arriving at 3.50am the next day.

Right after the New Year 2007 countdown celebration in Circular Quay, which is known as the best place on earth for fireworks viewing, I would head back to KL immediately.











Pretty headache to deal with all my junk stuffs. Two overweighted luagages. An Acer laptop. Freaking heavy for me. Carry them like a humpy-dumpy, hopefully wont have a great fall and crush it.





I wonder what is the first thing I should do when i arrive KLIA. Camwhore ? May be. No! Would buy a cab ticket first.

I wonder what is the first thing I wanna eat. Hm.. roti canai? nasi lemak? Wan Tan Mee ? McD ? or Nandos?

I wanna meet my long-lost friends May YAn, Azlina, Yan Pei and Pui Yee.

I wanna give a call to someone in Sydney that I'll definitely miss very much.

Dont worry. Aussie would be my future home after one year.




I will be back again. To see you, to meet you, to cuddle you, to kiss you !

Bondi Junction

:: Westfield is proudly owned by aussie even the shopping centres in KL are managed by Westfield. Desperately Westfield is not an excellent shopping spot due to the fac that all the goods are so dull and nothing extraordinary. I couldnt find anything interesting at all as in Taiwan or KL.

Before steeping in Westfield, we hung out around the flea market, or whatever market nearby. Nothing much for sale there, this is just a little market. But I was attracted by the white canopies used by them. It looks grand and elegant.

Sunny day

This is Westfield. The Christmas deco is not really satisfying but they emphasize on simplicity because is kinda special and plain. The main colour they used is white, instead of the traditional colours which are green and red.

The cones are transparent with something like lighting tiny xmas tree inside it. Similar with the magic ball used by the wicked old witch.

The hanging stuffs like silver shinny deers, balls, and stars freely fying across the ceiling

I love this big cone thingy with ballies sticking on it ensembles the snow balls falling onto the xmas tree

REd nose rain deers







Its snowing !!!



My attire did matched the deco dont you think so?

Too bored to be there. We went home by catching a train.

Bondi Beach

:: We appeared to be aliens from the Jupiter in Bondi Beach. Everyone is either naked or in bikini except us. We seemed to be not in an appropraite attire. That was why we became the centre of attraction.




Bondi Beach is one of the most famous tourist spot in Sydney. Despite of the size of the beach is far cry from what a beach is supposed to be, Bondi is always crowded with westerners baking naked under the hot burning sun.

To prevent further damage on our skin complexion, who cares we dressed like an arabian in the Sahara Dessert?

The weather was quite cold even though is summer now. Keep me warm please!!!

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Found a strange painted colourful wall at Bondi.

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  Me and the wall.
  
  
  

There are rocky rocks too.

I dont know why they built the fences to spoilt the view

A chun girl in sexy bikini with a sexy body. Hm juicy !

So I wanna immitated her as well.

Climbed down the rough rocks carefully.

Step by step.

And... finally reached the destination










Posey posey...but failed to be like her :(

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Love the waves, and the cooling breeze

Chun May Vin with the wall.

Melts your heart?

A Little tiny cave.

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I was not satisfy yet. Let's climb again!

Is this a nicer spot?

Took a picture together :)

May Vin hurted her back after the sand boarding and is still not well yet :( So she couldnt walk down through the bumpy rocks down to the beach together with me.

Wavy ocean.

The waves were too strong during the time and the life guard came interrupting the swimmers to swim further.

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The water is cold though. To prevent to be baked again, we dare not stay in the beach for too long. Shortly after 20 minutes we made a move to Bondi Junction,and proceeded to Westfield shopping centre.