:: Sometimes I doubt who I really am?
Familiar. He looks extremely familiar to me. Of course I know is him. My mind turned blank immediately in a second. Surprised, shocked, puzzled. My body was obviously out of coordination. My reaction significantly slowed down and I didnt know how to react or should I react. I never ever dream of I'll bumped into him at that place at the time. Unbelievable. Dumb enough, I just smiled at him dumbly, a very fake dumb smile. To my surprised, he did not recognise me at all even though we were approaching each other, he looked so cute innocent and then just walked away and disappeared in my view in a minute, with two of his female colleagues.
I should have shouted at him. Sigh. I didnt. Why? I dunno. It happened too fast as the speed of the appearance of the shooting star.
There were some days that were really bored. While I was wandering around Myers and Centre Point in a lazy evening, I felt a sense of loneliness even though xmas is around the corner. The place was so crowded because everyone was rushing to do their last minute Xmas shopping, except me. A huge variety of xmas gifts are available for sale such as perfume gift pack, lingeries gift pack, cosmetics, bathroom products are packed nicely in a little box and wrapped neatly with gorgeous shinny wrappers, completed with a cute ribbon on it. That was really cruel. Window shop is the cruelest thing to do. Everything is just extremely expensive.
Something had caught my eyes. I fancy that gorgeous party dress, pink in colour, with white lace embroidery on the edge of the skirt, loli style- corset top with lacy ribbons, OMG the price is $199 !!! Ok, I told myself, quick, get away from this place, go study or just crawl home. YOu have no more money !
I gave a call to him once i reached home. Indeed he said he never see me, at all. Perhaps he lost concentration as he confessed. Prolly he was surrounded by two females on each side and it is understandable that he wont notice me when he stucked in the middle of the two ladies. Confused. I remembered he gave me a glance, a single glance, why ? I doubt if I looked so ugly without make up? I doubt how come I look so different in my ugly specs, or perhaps in the pink heels boots, the 3/4 lenght pink pants,the half see-through MNG green long sleeve top .....
In fact, some of my friends couldnt recognise me when I tie up my hair. They said I was totally like 2 different person.......
So, should i take of my mask ?
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