The Art of Pretending

:: Sometimes I doubt who I really am?

Familiar. He looks extremely familiar to me. Of course I know is him. My mind turned blank immediately in a second. Surprised, shocked, puzzled. My body was obviously out of coordination. My reaction significantly slowed down and I didnt know how to react or should I react. I never ever dream of I'll bumped into him at that place at the time. Unbelievable. Dumb enough, I just smiled at him dumbly, a very fake dumb smile. To my surprised, he did not recognise me at all even though we were approaching each other, he looked so cute innocent and then just walked away and disappeared in my view in a minute, with two of his female colleagues.

I should have shouted at him. Sigh. I didnt. Why? I dunno. It happened too fast as the speed of the appearance of the shooting star.

There were some days that were really bored. While I was wandering around Myers and Centre Point in a lazy evening, I felt a sense of loneliness even though xmas is around the corner. The place was so crowded because everyone was rushing to do their last minute Xmas shopping, except me. A huge variety of xmas gifts are available for sale such as perfume gift pack, lingeries gift pack, cosmetics, bathroom products are packed nicely in a little box and wrapped neatly with gorgeous shinny wrappers, completed with a cute ribbon on it. That was really cruel. Window shop is the cruelest thing to do. Everything is just extremely expensive.

Something had caught my eyes. I fancy that gorgeous party dress, pink in colour, with white lace embroidery on the edge of the skirt, loli style- corset top with lacy ribbons, OMG the price is $199 !!! Ok, I told myself, quick, get away from this place, go study or just crawl home. YOu have no more money !

I gave a call to him once i reached home. Indeed he said he never see me, at all. Perhaps he lost concentration as he confessed. Prolly he was surrounded by two females on each side and it is understandable that he wont notice me when he stucked in the middle of the two ladies. Confused. I remembered he gave me a glance, a single glance, why ? I doubt if I looked so ugly without make up? I doubt how come I look so different in my ugly specs, or perhaps in the pink heels boots, the 3/4 lenght pink pants,the half see-through MNG green long sleeve top .....

In fact, some of my friends couldnt recognise me when I tie up my hair. They said I was totally like 2 different person.......

So, should i take of my mask ?

A Lonely Night

Tired ::

:: Few months ago, someone had brought me up to an awesome building for a view of the city lights in Sydney. It was a marvellous yet romantic trip, accompanied by an awesome atmosphere. How I wish , i could go there once more.




The sky was completely in darkness but then the night is still young back in KL as everyone is totally enjoying the wonderful night life. Anyway, the night here is not completely silent. My owner’s cute lil mousie was busy squeaking in its cage. Lying on the bed, I enveloped myself with my creamish comforter and hugged my pinkish pillow tightly, trying to get myself into the most comfortable position. I'm obssess with the smell of my pillow and comforter. Oh no, no, i should be mistaken.... I think I'm in love with the smell of myself...the smell is so pure, at least better than Escada perfume.

My eyes were still remained open. Surprisingly I’m still awake even though I had a chaotic day. Perhaps I need someone to tuck me to bed. I got myself up from the bed and walked out to the living room. The clock stroke sharp at 1.00am, it is just an ordinary clock. In my memory, there should be one special huge clock. Yeah I remembered that was my childhood favourite “My Grandfather’s Clock”.



My grandfather's clock
Was too large for the shelf,
So it stood ninety years on the floor;
It was taller by half than the old man himself,
Though it weighed not a pennyweight more.

It was bought on the morn on the day that he was born,
And was always his treasure and pride;
But it stopped short
Never to go again,when the old man died.
Ninety years without slumbering,
Tick, tock, tick, tock,
His life seconds numbering,
Tick, tock, tick, tock,
It stopped short, never to go again when the old man died.


This is a sad song...................

Reflection back to my childhood..........I remembered I used to stare at the shiny lil stars when I was young. Stars represent my thoughts. We couldnt afford a bigger house so we just lived in the level 2 in a small lil apartment right in the heart of the KL city. It is hardly to spot a star in the bright city. Things became much more complicated as time goes by. Everything is just so simple if i never grown up before. I was easy to be pleased when I was young, even a tiny lil star could bring me thousands of joy and happiness.


And today, I’m living in the heart of the city of Sydney, paying rent that worth almost my salary. I peeped through the window from level 21, but I hardly see a star too. The Australian city and the Australian city lights and the Australian stars and the Australian sky are exactly the same as the Malaysian city and the Malaysian city lights and the Malaysian stars and the Malaysian sky.


At a sudden, everything is so surreal.



mousie tried to hide away from me

she desperately wants to escape from the cage.

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I broke both of my Bracelets and necklace:(

Guess what i had lost 2 bracelets in one shot. Prolly someone is cursing behind me @_@. One of them is this cutie lil crystal thingy which was bought from Taiwan's Hakka Village with only freaking NTD 90 (RM 9), but i swear it is real and definitely not plastic ok. It had been with me for a year and a half but i broke it in Sydney. Damn sad ........

I really love this greenly crystal heart shape pendant deeply, anyone could buy me a new one from Subang Parade??? I swear you would be absolutely young forever , and i would also love you forever ! I want a new one.... sobz.